new colors...finally....something better to look at...got bored with the old one....

too much things happenin...so lil time to react and act........

i guess today is a better day......we patched up....everything is better now. i don't want to dwell on all this bad stuff anymore. the new year is comin' and i'm gonna try my best to be optimistic.

anywayz, i got great great gifts from everyone...thanks a lot peeps!!!!!! below are some pics of the gifts i got....dior bag, coach sandals from honey....dooney and burke bag, diamond cross ring from my mom and brother.....i also included the gifts baby got....ps2,grand theft auto 2,tokyo racing,phat farm shirt, rockawear shirt from meh......i gave my mom a dooney and burke bag, guess wallet, two shirts....and gladwin gave her a red bebe top........thanks a lot mom and gladwin! ur da best!

ooh....and i got myself a gucci wallet....since i lost my burberry one.....

this is the worst christmas ever.  for once, i thought i can feel total happiness BUT my world came crashing down. evrything turned upside down.  suddenly my life seems so blurry. 

life is so so not fair.  i give out so much of myself and don't get appreciated.  i bust my ass off but still i don't feel contentment.   i'm so motivated to pursue my dream but i feel so far from it.  everything seems so fucked up....it feels like my life has been blown into a thousand pieces and i can't fix it.  nothing feels right.  nothing seems right.  i'm not depressed or anything, i'm just sad that with my strong character, i still falter on small things.  considering how tough i've chosen to be, i still make mistakes. 

my only hope lies on the perception that all these happened for a reason. dat i can grasp something from it.  beh, i know you may read this.  you know i love you....but.......

i'm resurrected! ...oh my God..it has been months since i blogged....oh wellz...been terrible busy...juggling two jobs..being a sales associate and bank teller....going to night school at hpu....and being in the spirit club for my scholarship...and can i mention...maintaining a subtle relationship with my bf?... don't know how i do it...but i'm livin' it for real...its hard to keep up...but i kinda lyke it...cuz being busy means i'm gonna be rewarded later on....it means that everything will work out the way i want it to....cuz i'm busting my ass to set up my future.....i know i'm still young...but what the hell...i want to pursue my dreams...and nobody can stop me from doin so....

christmas is comin' up....that means i'm going shopping, shopping, shopping!!!!!!!!!! but too bad, i won't get to shop for myself....i got my mom a dooney and burke bag already! at least i'm done with her...(although i really wanna buy her some clothes)...i'm getting toys for my cousin...and my godchildren...bianca, gio, and makey....gotta buy something for my bro, paolo who's up in ny with his chic....and some stuff for my girls....cat and christine...(irene and shayne..if they're comin' home)....and of course...for my bf....hmph...i wonder what i gon' give 'em....at first, i wanted to buy him the gucci shoes....but when we went to the store...he didn't like it...he said he wouldn't wear it...ahh!!!!!!!! so i don't know what to get em...i don 't want to get something for his car cuz....he might sell em laterz or something...ahh!!! help!!!!!